On my homepage I used to say it right away:
“I love to paint and I paint what I feel.”
This pretty much says it all…or so I thought…which is why I just changed it...
Recently, I painted a series of three pictures that made me feel a change to my way of painting is coming. I owe the impetus for this to something that showed up on my Instagram feed, which I sincerely believe I was meant to find: Intuitive Art
This is picture no. 1 of 3:
I took different more or less fat black markers and let my hand draw what it wanted to draw. No rules! Total freedom!
Then the marks, details, texture or whatever you want to call them came to my mind. I drew them with finer markers and brush pens.
To that I added watercolor. And since some lines had created a sort of heart shape, I painted a heart – the light purple one – to which I added more heart shaped forms until I had a ring of hearts. Next came the other watercolor details.
But the picture wasn’t finished yet. The reddish lines I made with a sort of Conté stick. For the erratic white lines and the spirals I used a Stabilo Woody. It was then that the picture was finished and I felt the urge to paint a second one right away.
This one:
Again, I took different fat black markers and let my hand draw what it wanted to draw. Then I drew the details that came to my mind with finer markers and brush pens. One kind of detail I felt like drawing surprised me, because I had never drawn before: musical notes
Again, I used watercolor to add some color, but this time I just wanted to color in some of the spaces created by the black lines. For the erratic red lines I used a Stabilo Woody. For the finishing touch I added some golden details for which I used Schmincke Aqua Bronze in pale gold.
As before, I felt the urge to paint another painting right away. The result is this one. I must admit I was a bit surprised by what was coming to my mind while painting this picture:
For this picture I wanted the lines and the details to be red with a light wash in Payne’s Grey watercolor all over the picture.
Then I had the idea with the puzzle pieces. I picked the colors intuitively; meaning: I looked at my watercolor set and took the color that in that moment sprang out to paint the form of the puzzle piece that came to my mind. And it was only when I was about to paint the last piece that I realized I had used colors usually used to depict the seven chakras, so I consciously picked the missing color: red.
The next thing I realized was, I had unconsciously painted the forms of the puzzle pieces in a way so they would fit into each other – well, more or less due to my not really exact painting – if only I turned them around a bit in my mind. Actually, I confirmed that by drawing them on another piece of paper.
Since I couldn’t turn the pieces in the picture, I drew lines connecting the pieces where they would fit into each other starting with red to orange to yellow to green to light blue to dark blue and to purple and rounded out the intersections where they occurred.
Now came the final part: drawing details onto each of the puzzle pieces. Again, what I wanted to draw came to my mind just before I started drawing. Here are my explanations for them as far as I can give them, as I only followed my intuition not my thinking:
red (root chakra – I am): my “Fleur de Liberté. To me this is no surprise. I have freed myself from my past.
orange (sacral chakra – I feel): some ornament I started drawing a few weeks ago. I don’t know its meaning yet, but I like drawing it. It’s somehow comforting to me.
yellow (Solar plexus chakra – I do): an outward clockwise spiral. I’m no longer in the dark place I was in, I have considerably risen up the spiral and I’m growing spiritually…
green (heart chakra – I love): the heart chakra is the center of love. To love means to live and vice versa. hence the tree as a symbol for life and love.
light blue (throat chakra – I speak): asemic writing (writing without words) and musical notes. This one took some mulling over. I’m going to explain this below.
dark blue (third eye chakra – I see): some flowerlike ornament I can’t explain yet, but can you see the eyelike shape in its center that sort of happened while drawing?
purple (crown chakra – I know): the crow chakra is about connection to yourself and spirit. It’s also about transformation; hence the sunrise over the sea neurographic style.
As I said above I was quite surprised when I saw the finished picture and I must admit I didn’t and I still don’t like it as much as the other two.
However, spiritually or healing-wise it is of more importance than the other two.
How so?
Well, for one it shows me where I stand now after some intense healing/growing that happened since I had put my past to rest on September 30th (please, read my blog entry “Painting as Therapy or My Story Part II” for details) and it also tells me more about why I paint and what painting means to me.
This is where the details on the light blue puzzle piece become important:
The throat chakra = I speak = I express myself.
In my art I do that with words (writing down my spilled thoughts) and colors (my paintings). So, the asemic writing represents the “writing part”, but how do the musical notes fit in? I’m no musician at all. Why didn’t I draw brushes to represent the “painting part”? ...because there was a lot more to that than I could see right away.
At that point I had to take a deep breath, close my eyes and stop my mind from thinking. I had to feel it. Then it hit me: Just like music pleases my ears and makes me feel good when I listen to it, my pictures please my eyes and fill me with joy when I look at them (well, most of them anyway, because of course there are those that don’t turn out so well)
Moreover, what I paint is my truth and my truth alone, because I only paint what I feel and not something that is really there, which is what the asemic writing really means here and the reason why this is placed on the piece representing the throat chakra: speaking MY truth.
I guess this series of pictures was about me really understanding why I paint to be able to take it to the next level, whatever this might be .
So, why do I paint?
I paint because I love it.
Painting…
I have total freedom…
I do not follow any rules…
I speak my truth and my truth alone…
I create music for my eyes...
And I sincerely hope that my paintings are and will be music to your eyes as well.
Love,
Sabine ❤️
17th December 2023
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